Death Is Nothing At All

Originally Posted December 9, 2018Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me … Continue reading Death Is Nothing At All

Dearest Don Raine – This Was 2017

I regret that I didn't write and share photos more in 2017 in this special space. The loss of Grandma Mary at the end of 2016 extinguished a spark in my heart. I worried that the spark could never return. I now know that her death changed me, Leah, as I know myself, evermore. It … Continue reading Dearest Don Raine – This Was 2017

And Along Came a 40th Birthday

It felt like an outrageous accomplishment. It felt like the summit of Mt. Everest. And it also felt normal. We made it to his 40th birthday and life with cancer has become so normal to us, I was distracted by daily non-cancer minutia and completely forgot to plan something. While I was distracted, Dan planned … Continue reading And Along Came a 40th Birthday

2016 Gave Us a Different Kind of Christmas…

I started decorating and helping Raine get ready for the holiday season the day we returned from Colorado (a trip to see friends after Thanksgiving). I was grateful that I did that--I didn't know the majority of December would be engulfed by the trauma and duties of grief, then caught up in the whirlwind of our … Continue reading 2016 Gave Us a Different Kind of Christmas…

Dan’s Thoughts on Father’s Day

My favorite part of Father’s Day this year was sitting outside the tasting room at ArborBrook Vineyards with my wife, son, and our friends, the Timmen family. It was a beautiful sunny day with good conversation and a really nice cheese plate. There were also some very sweet cards from Leah and Raine, and just … Continue reading Dan’s Thoughts on Father’s Day